Say her name. Nia Wilson.
I woke up the other morning with the idea of what I was to create in my mind. This often happens to me when I am in the stages between sleep and waking. It comes as a direction, sometimes a command. "This is what you are to create." I sometimes wrestle with the ideas, trying to compromise with God yet he usually stands firm in the direction and peace does not come until I complete it. So I sculpted and cried. I cried because I knew this would not be the last woman whose name we will intentionally remember. I cried because a woman should not have to feel threatened while trying to live their daily life. I cried at the fact that no one will call it for what it is -- domestic terrorism. Since when did it become hunting season on black bodies? I was going to ask, "Since when did it become hunting season on human beings?" yet I don't think we are always viewed as human. I have not forgotten that at one time Black people were 3/4 of a person, listed with the other property -- cattle, chickens, and hogs... In the midst of this present situation we must persevere and stand strong. Say her name. May her death not be in vain.
Sorry for the lack of content, I've been struggling a lot (what else is new). I'm gonna try to make plans to go back to therapy soon.
Lately these have either been the type of days that I have to fight to get through, or the type where I blink and it's already over and I wonder what I did with my time.
I've been trying to use coping mechanisms to help me. It's corny, but I've been singing to myself a lot. It helps to keep my mind off of invasive thoughts, and it helps to make me feel centered.
One song I've been singing is one from 3 years ago, it's called "Here Comes a Thought" from Steven Universe. It's about not letting intrusive thoughts take over your mind; but instead staying calm, and understanding that they'll pass. That show has gotten me through so much that it's crazy lol
Anyway, here are some of my favorite sketches from the past month. Art has been tough lately bc I feel like I'm super inconsistent and like most of my stuff is regressing. But I look at these when I need to remind myself that I am improving, and that I am capable of making good art.
Thank you for reading. I hope you're doing well, and if not, then I hope you get better soon 💙